因为越来越了解自己而觉得恐惧

..Yosh!its been awhile to see my new post here,hahaha!Well...maybe im really get too bored alone in my room now.. Well, what i want to write actually is not much differences compared to what i had wrote last time. Yes,again i want to say that i seriously hate University life,i hate test! i hate wake up in early morning and go to the hell class and am lazy and suck to organize event for activities..Its really hard to organize an event if people are not giving their cooperation well,i am not to be mean here,its just a way to release my stress...its hard to convey cause u know what..friendship..but actually friend have to confess whatever you feel not right on the spot rather than u keep your mouth shut and think "never mind,its ok..'' but u have to see what kind of friend is it,can he or she accept you telling the truth? He or she might feel you are ego and self-centered (oh,well...) or what so ever..So,it is better to keep your mouth shut sometime...(im such a coward maybe..). My holidays was just over,thats why my mood is not stable now..my mind still in Ipoh eventhough my body is on Uni..not in mood to study yet..URG!!! My holidays..is just AWESOME and i really had enjoy my time with my friend very much..no matter with my form5 or form6 friends they all are nicer and i feel really happy by spending time with them. It is worth to know them...i went to beach,i had a BBQ...cinema..outing..and most remarkable..SING K!! i really enjoy sing k with friends..luckily all my friends are playful,they really get in my mood when in singing room and i can completely forget everything and enjoy my time with my friends..too bad some of my friends cant join me..i miss them..i must invite them next time....really miss them alot...Well...when i back to UPM..my mood went down..although i still feel happy when i meet my UPM friends..but yet,i still can't feel the warmness that i gained from Ipoh friends..but some friends in UPM are really good..maybe i just think of my first semester result just make me sad...(trying to force myself to smile and cheer..results don't mean anything! ^^v),i worry about test..cause i scare i got no time to study while i have a ton of activities waiting me to do..and i have to score high CGPA on this sem in order to cover my first sem's result..thats really stressed me alot..thanks to UPM =x Well,its all about the craps today,thanks for paying attention on what i had wrote. I feel relieved after writing this..bear in my mind..SMILE!! ^^